emily, being human

I want to tell you this story

without having to confess anything

Masterlist of Fic
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
ETA: Hello!  I typically post my fic on AO3 now!




THIS IS NOT ACCURATE. There's a lot on here, but I got way behind on it. Profound apologies, my friends.



Look at me trying to be all organized!  :D  This will be updated depending on how much fic I write.  Which is surprisingly quite a bit.  "Updated frequently" is probably a little more accurate, I suppose.

If you're new to viewing this journal (oh, I flatter myself in thinking so, yes?) then hello!  -waves-  Hope you enjoy my writing, for what it's worth.  Feel free to friend!  I keep the fic public, but there are some posts (memes, rl-rants, an' things) that are f-locked.  Regardless, feel free to friend even if you just want to keep track of the fic!


If you don't feel like muddling through the entire list below, I'll just say that my current WIPs from the list are related to Supernatural and Lost.  The SPN fic is called Free Until They Cut Me Down and is a post-5.22 Dean/Castiel-centric AU.  The Lost fic is a post-the End Jack/Jacob/Kate 'verse I call my how to build purgatory 'verse or just purgatory!verse.


Blanket Disclaimer: I don't own any of these sandboxes I'm playing around in.  XD


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Free Until They Cut Me Down - Masterlist
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
Free Until They Cut Me Down [Dean/Castiel, Anna/OFC; PG-13 to R] A post-5.22 AU WIP.
History repeats itself. Heaven is split between two choices: Reformation or Rebellion. Heaven is split between two brothers: Castiel or Raphael. Maybe this time the angels will learn from their mistakes.

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Sherlock Fic Masterlist - Love of the Loveless
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
This gets its own super special masterlist because the fic is cowritten by me and my lovely friend, reluctanthero27 . The Sherlock chapters are posted on her journal, the John chapters here on mine. The title of the fic comes from this hilarious commercial.

Love of the Loveless [John/Sherlock] Set approximately between 1.2 and 1.3.
Sometimes, the most obvious conclusions are the ones right in front of your face… Or just the ones living in your flat.  Love won't come easy for Sherlock, but John's used to fighting for the things he wants.

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Baby!Verse Masterlist
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
Once upon a time, pann_cake and I decided that we wanted Dean and Castiel to live happily ever after with their half-angel kid. Thus, the baby!verse was born (ah, the pun there is killing me).  Both of us are going to write in the 'verse, though probably not in any sort of chronological order.

Her masterlist can be found here.

Guys, this is really the fluffiest fic, ngl.  After all the emotional devastation going around the SPN fandom (not to mention the Sherlock fandom), we needed something happy. 

Also, for those of you that are thinking, kid!fic? I can't handle mpreg... there isn't any mpreg, promise.


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... and onward...

Fic: Free Until They Cut Me Down [Part 9/?]
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
I'm here!  I'm alive!  I promise!

So remember that time I said the last chapter was 2x longer than the one before it?  Yeah.  Well, this one too.  God bless cymbalism219 for beta'ing this chapter multiple times and for being so patient with me.  Same goes to you readers for the patience.  I know it's been awhile, as usual!  Hope you guys stick with me!


Title: Free Until They Cut Me Down [Part 9/?]
Rating: R
Genre and/or Pairing: angst, hurt-comfort, slow build romance; eventual Dean/Castiel, Anna/OFC
Characters (in this section): Dean, OFC (Sophia), Anna, Castiel, Bobby, Raphael
Spoilers/Warnings: post-5.22 AU; blasphemy, civil war in Heaven, violence, profanity, previously fallen&amnesiac!Castiel, my Paradise Lost boner
Word Count (in this section): 7,966
Previous Chapter: Part Eight [link to masterlist] [AO3 link]

Chapter Summary: There is work to be done.

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Fic: this is the way it goes [dean/rule 63!castiel]
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
( You are about to view content that may only be appropriate for adults. )

So. Shame.
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
I feel like lots of disclaimers and introductory stuff are required for me to make this post.

First off, I want to warn y'all that there are going to be lots of spoilers about the film. So if you do want to watch the film without being spoiled for anything (besides the fact that it's about sex addiction and there's, thus, a lot of sexual content in the film), stop reading now.

I'm serious, I am most likely going to spoil the entire movie for anyone reading this. I don't know how to write this post without doing so.

This post is actually probably only halfway for cymbalism219 who asked me what I thought of the film and if she should watch it. I've seen this film twice and I'm still sorting out my feelings about it so a lot of this post is actually me talking myself through what happened and what I think of it.

Okay? Okay.

Now, this film is hard to watch and not just for the sex addiction parts. I'm going to do a read more cut right now in the interest of ~spoilers, but the bit at the beginning of the cut is going to be some point-blank warnings I think are important.

There is a reason I'm doing this and it's because I had to watch this film for a class and my professor didn't warn the class for anything and I wish he had. As I said in my post earlier this week, I watched the film on my own first and I'm glad I did if only because then I could warn friends I have in the class about triggering material and they could then decide whether or not to watch the film with the rest of our class. Frankly, I can't imagine watching this film for the first time surrounded by other people, especially if the material triggers you.

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hi darlings
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
It's weird that this post is the first I've made of the new year-- and I'm sorry, it's going to be a really quick one because I swore to myself that I'd do work on my senior project tonight.

Anyway darlings, I hope you're all doing well and that you're all warm enough if you have snow and/or the freakin' ridiculously cold temperatures going around.  Also, if you're in the middle of Winter Storm Khan (I DIED laughing about that name, just saying!), I hope it's not hitting you too hard. <3

Also, if you're on tumblr, I hope that the new updates aren't enraging you like they are me. (Let's not talk about it, I recognize I'm being irrational.)

SO ANYWAY I promised cymbalism219 that sometimes this weekend I'd do a post about Shame because I had to watch it for my Sexual Outcasts class this week.  I watched it once by myself the night before I watched it with the rest of my class.  And oddly enough I think I want to watch it again?  I wouldn't call it an enjoyable film, but if I'm going to be sorting out my feelings for it via writing, I think I need to see at least a few scenes again.  I want to talk about Brandon and Sissy (the main character and his sister) because there was something about them that was frustratingly vague but really important.  I don't know if that makes sense.  Hence, why I think I need to watch it again and take notes.

Don't worry, it was easier to watch the second time around.

So be on the lookout for that post hopefully this weekend, when I'm taking a break from writing my novella.

End of the year round up (as usual!)
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
Wow, uh. It’s been awhile. I’m sorry, things have gotten really… busy and, well, stuff happened. If you haven’t been keeping up with me on tumblr, here’s the shortest of all recaps of my personal life this month: I’m miserably behind on my senior thesis project (liveblog of IS crying) and my grandmother passed away very suddenly on Christmas Eve (grief).

This year, in general, has been really crazy. But let’s look at the bit of fic I’ve managed to write:

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I know there are probably more fics floating around on my tag on tumblr (my fic) and there definitely is stuff in the rough drafts tag.

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So... what did I do this year?

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I was going to post the first lines of things, but I'm going to go ahead and leave it off here.

I love you all.  I hope you have a wonderful New Year's and that 2013 treats us all well.

<3

fic: 'roommates' (part two) [apartment!verse]
emily, being human
ilfirin_estel
I blame pann_cake entirely.  And cassandra_leeds because Dean rambling like he does in this always makes me think of our roleplay, particularly this post.

This is in the new apartment!verse, but can totally stand alone.  And know that there will be more eventually.  If you haven't seen the first post about this 'verse, know that it is supposed to be a Lost/SPN crossover where Miles/Richard lives in the apartment across the hall from Dean/Castiel.  Sam is probs off finishing his degree and/or living with Amelia/Jody/Sarah Blake (I haven't decided yet XD). 


Title
: ‘Roommates’(part two/?)
Rating: PG
Genre and/or Pairing: fluff, idk; Dean/Castiel
Spoilers/Warnings: no real spoilers or warnings that I can think of
Word Count: 360

Summary: Dean stumbles through an explanation about how he always wanted a "real" Christmas.

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